Realization..

It was a rainy day when I made a decision,
A decision that would change my life,
A decision that was impossible even days before that night..
But I dint have a choice, but to forgive and forgo
Cause everything is not in my hand..no matter how i crave to be in control.

To think about it in simple terms, I lost what i treasured most,
To be the one and only, to be in peace, to be the core..
Then I thought why? Why should I lie? Lie to self?
Lie I did..Lie I tried...
But failed..miserable failure...forgot the existence of beings immortal.

Life goes on as some say..
This way? Shattered and broken..trespassed within?
Is it me who is at fault? Or is it a way to test my perseverance?
Expectations were all I had..sky high..but dint lie...
And then I found how useless efforts were..trying to bind water with sand.

Now I let you go wherever you want..
Just dont say I dint try..dint try to mend your ways..
Dint try to make you mine...but you were always lost..
Lost in your thoughts and plans...you were never wrong..
I realized my mistake was to think I had you forever..all time..all mine..